Because right now I am on the edge of having a weather induced anxiety attack and Nathan is out of the country.
This is not easy for me and lately I’ve been reading Jurassic Park to take my mind off of his departure, but it is only adding to my anxiety.
When I was a kid I would have full blown panic attacks on cloudy days. I obsessed over the weather.
When I got older I got over the anxiety and treasured storms for their force and beauty. Now I’ve backslid and can’t sleep.
It has been raining every night for the past few days. I’m constantly tired from the lack of sleep.
What is worse is that I have to get through this alone, but that is okay. I can handle it. I will do my best to keep it together.
It may not be the best drawing, but it feels good to refocus my energy into something healthy and productive.
Here are some selfies with Paolo. Noodle salad.
I love Flamin’ Hot Cheetos.
It is more than a love at this point.
I can’t explain the connection I have to these spicy caveman clubs. There is a special little place in my heart for them.
I crave their blissful burn. I long for it at all hours of the night
My guilty pleasure.
This was such a controversial song when it came out.
Funny how times have changed.
I had a pretty rad childhood.
My grandparents picked up where my parents couldn’t and I’m super close to my brothers and sister.
In a lot of ways the divorce has brought our family together.
It was his way of hitting on me.
He totally waited when I was the most vulnerable, when my side of the booth was left open.
Plus, I was super drunk. Probably the drunkest I could be without feeling sick. I had Rachel there, thank God.
I don’t appreciate being hit on. The last two times the guys came on way too strong.
I just left. I mean this guy was trying to get handsy so I just darted out of there.
I feel really uneasy when people express interest in me. Like I almost want to cry because it stresses me out.
I want to be able to go out with my friends on a nice night and not have to worry about someone trying to get in my pants.
Sky Blue Sky
Maybe the sun will shine today.
So this is what I do instead of studying.
I love breakfast cereal.
I love sandwiches.
Now that its warm outside I feel like eating more cereal, sandwiches and noodle salads in addition to the salads I normally eat.
I’m craving fresh fruits and vegetable right now.
I want to go on a picnic.
This post is more of a stream of consciousness than anything. I guess the point I’m making is that I’m hungry, it’s warm out and I want fruit and cereal.